It is the start of a new month for the One Four Challenge hosted by Robyn Gosby at Captivate Me. For October, I am focusing on a painful subject: grief. My Mum died on 30 August, two days after her 86th birthday. Her passing was sudden, devastating and without mercy. I spent the next several weeks back in France with my Dad, to help support him.
So although our blog continued as if nothing had happened, with most posts for September already scheduled, extreme sorrow was what best describes the past month and I could not have faced doing anything on our website. I am now back in Australia, but for our family, nothing will ever be the same.
A walk through a European forest is special and so different from wanders through the Australian bush. The dappled light through the green and lush canopy gives you a sense of gentleness and tranquillity.
We took a few walks through the forest while I was with Dad. It was soothing. But although the original image looks peaceful, what I feel inside is an overwhelming sense of loss.
So this month my image processing will attempt to represent the feelings and emotions we have gone through and will still experience for months. I know the waves of sorrow will become less intense; at least this is what I hope for Dad. But I also know the path to a changed life will be difficult.
Week One – Spinning… Tourbillon
Grief hits you like a cyclone. Your world collapses and spins you out. Light gives way to darkness, colour is gone, everything around you is either razor sharp or blurred and distorted. You feel beaten up physically and mentally.
Here are the steps I have taken for this first week to capture those feelings:
- In Lightroom, I totally desaturated the image, rendering devoid of any colour
- In Photoshop, I then:
- Created a duplicate layer
- Added a filter, and selected ‘Distort’ and ‘Polar Coordinates’
- Added my watermark in an arch at 60% opacity so it blends in the spin
The altered image shows a mix of sharpness and starkness in the radiating lines and blur in the spinning centre. The shapes of the trees and path through the forest are hardly recognizable.
Although it is a painful exercise, this image transformation is a way of telling the world that all is not easy at sv-takeiteasy. In a strange way, working on the image this month will also help me process what is going on inside me.
Kind comments on this week’s editing are welcome, as always.
Not all images in this photo processing challenge are as confronting and heavy as this one. To view the creative work of other participants, click on the One Four Challenge link.